I'm not ready... {Please stay 11}

I realized something tonight. Not that I didn't know it before.. but for the first time, I really, truly felt it. Deep in my gut, like a sick, wanting to throw up feeling. As I dropped Isaiah off at his friend's house (a friend I'm not too enthusiastic about)... the whole 3 minute drive home, I wanted to seriously throw up. I don't know if it's because he's my firstborn, only son... I do feel that has something to do with it, but I am SO protective of him. He's my first, I've made all my mistakes with him. I've learned how to be a mom as he's grown, both of us, together, along the way. I try to avoid mistakes, if at all possible. If I have any control over it, I don't want to screw up.

He's on the brink of teenager-hood (if that's a word) and I don't want to let him go. In just 8 short months, he'll turn 12. Then 13, 14, and so on. I'm not ready. Rich keeps telling me not to worry, Isaiah is a good boy. And I agree, he is. I just don't want him getting any older than he is right now. I want to freeze time. He's still my little boy. And I want it to stay that way.



I'm afraid I won't get much sleep tonight.

Isaiah, on his 11th birthday

Self Accomplishment

I've been really bad with keeping up with my blog.. hopefully I can get back to it regularly. I didn't post anything for the kids bdays.. which I'm not happy about at all! I will need to go back and put something up from their special days :)

Anyhow.. still tryin to get the hang of photography. I feel like I've been taking photos for so long but I know I am such an amateur at getting pro lookin photos. I watched Abbie today for my sis and took her outside at just the right time as the sun was beginning to set. It really showed me that lighting is EVERYTHING! Wow.. I am so proud of these and I can't wait to print some out and give them to my sis as a surprise :))

~~~~octomom~~~~

rich and i are online tonight, looking at craigslist ads. we come across an ad wanting help with a home ebay biz. it says 'female preferred.' i ask rich why he thinks that is.

isaiah is just in the other room, playin x-box, one ear (as usual) glued to our A+B convo.

he never C's his way out of it.

rich goes on to say that women are able to multi-task..

then i hear the C boy say.. "yeah.. like an octopus... like mom!"

gotta love him.

:)

here are a few shots I got today of my pinky pink.

(she prefers this name lately)

Showing off her lovely fillings

entertained by her shadow

princess

President's Day.

The kids and I headed to Newport Beach today for President's day. The middle of February, still "winter", but almost 80 degrees. We are spoiled, for sure! The kids had a blast ofcourse, first playing in the water, having a sand castle contest, building their own little forts out of bamboo sticks and then we got cleaned up and walked over to Balboa Boardwalk. There we had pizza and the girls got to ride the carousel. Right after that we enjoyed cotton candy & ice cream. With stuffed tummies and stinky fingers.. we headed back to the car, but not before takin a quick pic in front of one of the many beautiful murals you'll find all over Newport. What a day!

A couple other highlights..

Ellah found a sand dollar.

Hannah got buried in the sand.

Isaiah had a blast in the jinormous waves!

I got to sit back, relax and take it all in.



Lucky me :)

Amused by the ferry.

Fun on the carousel.

Never a dull moment with this one.

Yummy ice cream.

Silly goose.

Pretty mural.

Dancing Shoes

My shoes are like no other,

flying and diving here and there across the stage,

spinning and grinning with their shiny black look,

as I smile and leap and cascade from here to there,

the truth is that I don't really have a pair of dancing shoes,

but anytime I come close to you my ordinary everyday shoes become these,

so for you I jump and hop and spin,

giving my all just for you,

so I give you something to smile about,

to laugh and grin,

you bring out the best in me,

you are my true dancing shoes,

because you are a 'shiny immortal' person,

with love and faith,

and truth and grace,

love so strong that nothing seems to go wrong,

whenever we're together anything is possible,

and you

you are

my dancing shoes.

Already 40!

So since I'm recording down things uttered by my intelligent children.. I wanted to remember something Hannah had said the other day. Lately she's been facsinated, well more like worried about me and Rich dying! I don't know where this came from, but I can remember when I was probably around her age having those same anxieties and worries. Anyhow, she came to me the other day and was just so sad about her not wanting me to die and she asked, "mom, what are you gonna do when dad dies?, what will you do without him?" I looked at her puzzled and she went on to say, "well, he's already gonna be 40!"


I guess she thinks doom is waiting around the corner for him, since he's SO OLD!

Needless to say, it made me laugh..... VERY hard!





:)

me+4

Starting this blog so that I don't forget life's unexpected moments... cherished moments...

just me + 4 :)